· Thursday, 23 July 2009
I feel un-moored. I feel like a boat with no captain. I feel as though I am walking, with no destination. Where is the map?
I think what I really feel is a form of homesickness.
How can that be? My home is here. I have no place to go back to really. The family home was sold a few years ago and my parents are gone.
In the small moments I find beauty and joy, but there is a restlessness that makes me uncomfortable. It has been just below the surface for several days. It makes me want to do something…take action, but I cannot fathom what that action might be.
Somehow I want to stay in one place, become part of a tribe, part of a larger purpose, but how, where?
Things I once found joy in escape me…distractions are simply that, distractions.
I am tired.
I need a map, a goal, a dream, a path. Where are the yellow arrows? (Yellow arrows on the Camino keep the pilgrims going in the right direction)
· Wednesday, 22 July 2009
· Tuesday, 21 July 2009
Wading into the Future – Or is Plunging in Better?
As I walked Miss Zia this morning, I reflected on the past year and contemplated the future. So many interesting opportunities and ideas dance through my mind.
past year I took some risks. There were
three major things I wanted to do this year which required significant time
off…some of life’s adventures just cannot fit into the constraints of a 9-5 job
or the 2-week vacation allotted to most employees here in the USA. (I wanted to take 6-weeks to walk the 500
mile Camino from
I committed to these events (and a few others) and I took the leap!
I plunged into the cold stream of life and came up swimming and laughing.
And now I am refreshed and ready to move forward on something new.
I am happy. I am engaged in life. I am learning and growing and finding joy and abundance in unexpected ways and places.
Today marks a transition to a new year; an advent to a new year anyway. Today Mark ends his AmeriCorps/Habitat responsibilities. Like me, he will no longer have the security (or the chains) of a 9-5 role. (At least for a while.)
For the next ten weeks we embark on a couple projects (contracts). We will collaborate on writing and producing a video and I will undertake what is essentially a training project (developing a position description; refining the tasks related to it; establishing training standards and cataloging the information in a useful tool for management and employees). He will find ways to use his technology skills and develop some private clients (ideally on retainer as a consultant, troubleshooter and advisor) as well as to continue work with non-profits.
autumn arrives (October), I will no doubt be behind a desk at the New Mexico
Coalition for Literacy again. Among
other things, I will be developing a recruiting strategy and implementation
plan. (I will be funded as a member
of AmeriCorps*VISTA – FYI: VISTA stands
for Volunteers in Service to
In the meantime, Mark and I will work from home. It will be pleasant to have the opportunity to orchestrate our own time; a new experience for us.
Life unfolds and offers us more gifts than we can imagine. I am so grateful for the gifts we receive.
· Monday, 20 July 2009
Ahhhhh…my morning pages. What has become of this beautiful, satisfying ritual?
I used to rise early and spend some time at my keyboard before the concerns of the day discovered me. I could tap away a while, sorting through my own thoughts as the sun creeped up and poked through the curtains; before the morning coffee or the dog-walk or the chatter from my favorite folks on NPR. And before my sweet spouse climbed out of bed to capture my attention.
For soooo long now, I have missed those delicious morning moments.
There is pleasure in the simple act of just tapping away at the keyboard, letting my thoughts dance about randomly to a tune of my own making. I am better for it. I face the day grounded and able to see the good beyond the misty, mortal illusions.
Carving out that hour is essential.
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Santiago de Compostela Camino (
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