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Sunday, 27 April 2008
Miss Zia the predator
A
sweet, little, blind mole scurried past the kitchen door. Mark opened the outside door and before we
knew it, Miss Zia was out the door and halfway across the yard.
And
that was the end of Mr. Mole.
Dogs
are dogs…prey is prey.
The Hummer in the House
I
looked outside the back door this morning and was surprised to see a beautiful
hummingbird fluttering frantically in the corner of the porch. A lost little bird.
The
poor tiny fairy-of-a-bird was trying to escape through the glass. He banged his beak against the glass
repeatedly as I watched.
How
to get him out? My resourceful spouse
went outside. I saw his face appear
outside the window. Then his hand rose
and that frightened the little bird. The
hummer did a quick u-turn and sped out the open outside porch door and found
freedom again.
Time
to fill the hummingbird feeders
Earth Day Efforts
Recently
a series of e-mail shared among family and friends focused on small ways to “go
green”. Almost all of the suggested
lifestyle changes have always been part of our repertoire.
One
“green” habit I have neglected since coming to
Today
I picked up a drying rack. I also
purchased an electric hot pot to heat our coffee water. Another small effort. Our third lifestyle change is to compost our
coffee grounds, paper, and organic stuff with the help of some red-wigglers –
yep worms! We are getting 2,000 new
pets!
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Saturday, 26 April 2008
Peace Corps Daze..
Last
year at this time, our life in
Now,
Already
we are beginning to consider what might lie ahead. Mark’s AmeriCorps*
The
past years (Almost 4 from our April Fool’s Day Peace Corps application in
spring 2004 through our return to the
How
funny our Peace Corps experience was. No
African villages with tribal music and primitive ways. No, our experiences in
Our
Peace Corps experience was not defined by the pictures most people conjure up
when they imagine a couple years of service as a PCV. Our experience was hardly like the
experiences of PCVs in
It
was a wonderful experience…but already it seems like a dream. We are just now, after a year in the
And
yet I know I have grown from the experience and I have learned countless
things. What a blessing the experience
was.
How
grateful I am to have had it and how delighted I am to have shared it with my adventurous
sweet-spouse, my high-school sweetheart, my very-best friend, my companion, my
life-partner.
The
future is still a hazy, misty vision…but I know when the fog finally lifts, it
will be a delight…in part, because I will share it with my husband. And we have such wonderful memories to share.
·
Friday, 25 April 2008 - TGIF!
White doves wake me and doves
lull me to sleep…
It
is a pleasure to live closely with nature.
These days I am most aware of the dove-couple on our property. They wake me with their soothing call. Late in the afternoon they lull me with their
cooing.
I
wonder if they know how much joy they bring with their gentle calls. Probably not.
There is a lesson for those humans who are paying attention.
8-)
My
brother’s trip is still in progress. I
guess he is back in
My
hours with him sped by.
Who
knows when I may see him again? My
whirlwind trip is an example of the kinds of things he (and my delightful
sisters) have taught me over the years.
Stop and enjoy friends and family…make the effort…you just never know
when things will change or end…
Good
lessons my family has taught me.
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Thursday, 24 April 2008
First Day Back at Work – Always Hard!
Why is the first
day after a vacation, always soooo challenging?
I spent most of the day sifting through e-mail. Tomorrow is Friday – TGIF. Monday I can start fresh.
National Volunteer Week begins Sunday,
April 27th…
Lest we forget our
fellow volunteers…there are some advantages to the life of a volunteer. Unfortunately people frequently equate
“volunteerism” with a lack of professionalism or training. The phrase: “just a volunteer” slips through
the lips of far too many people.
If not for
volunteers (professional or otherwise) many tasks and services would never be
accomplished.
Next week is
National Volunteer Week – read the Presidential proclamation that follows…
THE WHITE HOUSE
Office of the Press Secretary
April 23, 2008
National Volunteer Week, 2008
A Proclamation by the President of the United States of America
Through countless acts of kindness, volunteers across America are
changing our Nation for the better. During National Volunteer Week, we
recognize those who take the time to help their fellow citizens realize
the full potential of
Through volunteer work, Americans can demonstrate the kindness and
generosity that makes our Nation great. Mentoring a child, teaching
someone to read, visiting the elderly, feeding the hungry, and finding
shelter for the homeless are all examples of how Americans can and do
aid those in need. Americans are volunteering in record numbers.
Each
year, millions of Americans volunteer, and more of our fellow citizens
are discovering that the pursuit of happiness leads to the path of
service. The cumulative effort of the love and compassion from our
Nation's volunteers will help secure a more hopeful future for all our
citizens.
My Administration remains committed to building a culture of
service, citizenship, and responsibility. The USA Freedom Corps
strengthens civic engagement and volunteer service in
people connect with volunteer opportunities. By visiting the
Freedom Corps website at volunteer.gov, individuals can find information
about ways they can help in their local areas and across the country.
The strength of
citizens. National Volunteer Week is an opportunity to show
appreciation for our Nation's volunteers. The time and energy they
dedicate to helping those in need reflect the true spirit of
NOW, THEREFORE, I, GEORGE W. BUSH, President of the
of America
and laws of the
3, 2008, as National Volunteer Week. I call upon all Americans to
recognize and celebrate the important work that volunteers do every day
throughout our country. I also encourage citizens to explore ways to
help their neighbors in need and serve a cause greater than self.
IN WITNESS WHEREOF, I have hereunto set my hand this
twenty-second day of April, in the year of our Lord two thousand eight,
and of the
and thirty-second.
GEORGE W. BUSH
# # #
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Wednesday, 23 April 2008
Vacation’s Over…Noon Already
I
call in “sick” – I need a day to recuperate, recover, synthesize events…I will
stay at home today.
I
plunk down at my desk around 0830. The
plan is to sip black coffee from my favorite yellow Bosco mug and catch up on
my daily (ha daily!) journal.
My
plan went awry. Here it is noon and I am
just opening my journal.
All
my morning inspiration (and much of my morning energy) has dispersed,
disappeared, dried up or detoured.
And
I made the fatal mistake - I opened my e-mail.
After
a week of being sans-computer, my inbox is quite full of tantalizing tidbits;
tales from friends and family and many other tantalizing temptations. I failed in my discipline. I break my own rule.
But,
I enjoy it.
There
are about 300-plus e-mails waiting my tender ministrations, but they are on the
back-burner now. I manage to scan the
mass and delete the less pressing mail.
I poke out responses to several inquiries.
My
coffee is cold now and my sense of a long, delightful day in which to turn my
thoughts into word pictures has escaped me.
Since it is now afternoon, I am conscious that my sweet spouse will
bound through the door around 4 PM and I will be caught up in his life.
Then
I will have to pull my thoughts together, put on appropriate garb and take Miss
Z off to our 1730 training class. After
a week away from Miss Zia, I wonder how she will respond to the pop-quizzes the
trainer likes to pull!
Here
I sit, with a brain filled with stories to tell. Likely under the sense of pressure I am
feeling now, the tales will degenerate into a mere report on “What I Did on My Vacation.” I like it better when I can paint a word-picture,
make a snapshot of phrases, evoke a feeling, open a window for the reader…
Sigh.
On
the train (two 24-hour train rides this past week), I penned my thoughts on my
cheery yellow-paged notebook, the kind with graph paper on the reverse side. My notes help me recall events and thoughts I
would like to share or develop. I will
work at this over the next few days.
What I am Reading…
In Borders on
This book, a classic from the 60’s, explores mental and societal breakdown in an
innovative way. The term “inner science
fiction” is used to describe this tome.
I
had hoped to make considerable headway during the 24-hour train ride, but I
barely made it through the introduction.
The
train was quite crowded, so I had a seatmate.
I am capable of burying my nose in a good book, but the reading light
above my head did not work and consequently I was vulnerable to being drawn
into a conversation.
The
book (and my knitting as well as my writing) remained in my tote-bag as I
engaged in an interesting, non-stop conversation with the young scientist I
found myself elbow-to-elbow with.
The
luck of the draw was with me both coming and going. Both seat-mates were intelligent young men
who spoke of ideas, dreams, thoughts, feelings.
Around us other passengers seemed stuck in superficial conversation
while I was fortunate enough to be juggling stimulating ideas as the miles of
railroad track slipped away underneath the coach.
One
of the conversations (not necessarily the most engaging, but relevant right
now) was about reading. How does one
choose a book? There are just sooooo
many books to be read.
The
introduction to Lessing’s book has a lot to say about reading and education and
provides considerable fodder for a great discussion on this topic. (Her Marxist and Communist slant intrigue me,
especially contrasted/compared with her ideas about conformity … but I
digress.
Soooooo, what are YOU
Reading?
How
do YOU choose the books you read?
What
influences your choices?
The
pleasure of randomness and whim? Do you
have a list from a mentor? Do you read
by author or topic? This topic would
make a nice exercise for a writing class…
Why do you read - for fun or facts; for answers or entertainment; for
diversion or escape? Do you read widely
or do you have a driving interest?
Do
you re-read books? Do books affect you
differently at different places in your life and development? Do you read critically or for pleasure? How much of who you are or how you have
lived is reflected in what you get from a given book? Can a book change who you are? Can a book in itself be dangerous?
Library
books, book stores or used books? (The
ecology or the economy?) Write notes in
the margin or treat them as sacred? Finish
every book you start or finish only those that prove worthy? Novels or only non-fiction? Do you read only one book at a time or do you
have several going at once?
Do
you have someone to discuss books with or is it a private pleasure you never
really share? Do you keep a list of what
you’ve read? Do you have a list of books
you want to read?
Where
do you read? Do you ever read aloud to
yourself or to your dog, cat or spouse?
Do you read less now that you have e-mail to eat up your time?
Do
you read books friends and family send you or suggest you read?
So
many interesting nuances to the topic.
Too little time to explore and to share…(Yikes, here it is 1330 already!…)
What
5-6 books would you recommend? Of course
you may have another completely different list for me on another day, but right
now, today, what 5-6 books would you suggest that I read? I’ll compile a list on my website later… Make your list BEFORE you read the list below…
Following
is an interesting collection of “what to read”…How many have you already
read? What books should be added (or
eliminated)?
Here’s a List of 100 Books
from Time Magazine
( http://www.time.com/time/2005/100books/the_complete_list.html
)
This
list is limited to novels after 1923…and other criteria…but it is stimulating
to consider these books… What a hard
task to compile such a list. Visit the
website for more on this project.
In Alphabetical Order
A - B
The Adventures of Augie March, Saul Bellow
All the King's Men, Robert Penn Warren
American Pastoral, Philip Roth
An American Tragedy, Theodore Dreiser
Animal Farm, George Orwell
Appointment in Samarra, John O'Hara
Are You There God? It's Me, Margaret, Judy Blume
The Assistant, Bernard Malamud
At Swim-Two-Birds, Flann O'Brien
Atonement, Ian McEwan
Beloved, Toni Morrison
The Berlin Stories, Christopher
Isherwood
The Big Sleep, Raymond Chandler
The Blind Assassin, Margaret Atwood
Blood Meridian, Cormac McCarthy
Brideshead Revisited, Evelyn Waugh
The Bridge of San Luis Rey, Thornton Wilder
C - D
Call It Sleep, Henry Roth
Catch-22, Joseph Heller
The Catcher in the Rye, J.D. Salinger
A Clockwork Orange, Anthony Burgess
The Confessions of Nat Turner, William Styron
The Corrections, Jonathan Franzen
The Crying of Lot 49, Thomas Pynchon
A Dance to the Music of Time, Anthony Powell
The Day of the Locust, Nathanael West
Death Comes for the Archbishop, Willa Cather
A Death in the Family, James Agee
The Death of the Heart, Elizabeth Bowen
Deliverance, James Dickey
Dog Soldiers, Robert Stone
F - G
Falconer, John Cheever
The French Lieutenant's Woman, John Fowles
The Golden Notebook, Doris Lessing
Go Tell it on the Mountain, James Baldwin
Gone With the Wind, Margaret Mitchell
The Grapes of Wrath, John Steinbeck
Gravity's Rainbow, Thomas Pynchon
The Great Gatsby, F. Scott Fitzgerald
H - I
A Handful of Dust, Evelyn Waugh
The Heart Is A Lonely Hunter, Carson McCullers
The Heart of the Matter, Graham Greene
Herzog, Saul Bellow
Housekeeping, Marilynne Robinson
A House for Mr. Biswas, V.S. Naipaul
I, Claudius, Robert Graves
Infinite Jest, David Foster Wallace
Invisible Man, Ralph Ellison
L - N
Light in August, William Faulkner
The Lion, The Witch and the Wardrobe, C.S. Lewis
Lolita, Vladimir Nabokov
Lord of the Flies, William Golding
The Lord of the Rings, J.R.R. Tolkien
Loving, Henry Green
Lucky Jim, Kingsley Amis
The Man Who Loved Children, Christina Stead
Midnight's Children, Salman Rushdie
Money, Martin Amis
The Moviegoer, Walker Percy
Mrs. Dalloway, Virginia Woolf
Naked Lunch, William Burroughs
Native Son, Richard Wright
Neuromancer, William Gibson
Never Let Me Go, Kazuo Ishiguro
1984, George Orwell
O - R
On the Road, Jack Kerouac
One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest, Ken Kesey
The Painted Bird, Jerzy Kosinski
Pale Fire, Vladimir Nabokov
A Passage to India, E.M. Forster
Play It As It Lays, Joan Didion
Portnoy's Complaint, Philip Roth
Possession, A.S. Byatt
The Power and the Glory, Graham Greene
The Prime of Miss Jean Brodie, Muriel Spark
Rabbit, Run, John Updike
Ragtime, E.L. Doctorow
The Recognitions, William Gaddis
Red Harvest, Dashiell Hammett
Revolutionary Road, Richard Yates
S - T
The Sheltering Sky, Paul Bowles
Slaughterhouse-Five, Kurt Vonnegut
Snow Crash, Neal Stephenson
The Sot-Weed Factor, John Barth
The Sound and the Fury, William Faulkner
The Sportswriter, Richard Ford
The Spy Who Came in From the Cold, John le Carre
The Sun Also Rises, Ernest Hemingway
Their Eyes Were Watching God, Zora Neale Hurston
Things Fall Apart, Chinua Achebe
To Kill a Mockingbird, Harper Lee
To the Lighthouse, Virginia Woolf
Tropic of Cancer, Henry Miller
U - W
Ubik, Philip K. Dick
Under the Net, Iris Murdoch
Under the Volcano, Malcolm Lowry
Watchmen, Alan Moore & Dave Gibbons
White Noise, Don DeLillo
White Teeth, Zadie Smith
Wide Sargasso Sea, Jean Rhys
XXX
·
Tuesday, 22 April 2008
Home Sweet Home!
Home
at last.
I hit the ground running. There is a Habitat for Humanity function
shortly after I arrive home. A quick
shower and then I am back in the truck heading across town to share dinner with
a bunch of strangers.
I
am weary and eager to just sped time at home.
It
was good to see my brother and share time with family too. Tomorrow, I will be back at work, and it will
seem as if the past few days never happened.
·
Monday, 21 April 2008
Weak
spring sunshine peeks through trees above my head. My black clothes make a solar magnet; I am
comfortable in the 0830 40 degree temperatures, but my fingers are bit stuff
from the cold morning air.
I
wonder if Mark and Miss Zia are out on the AM walk back in
Small
plump birds poke their beaks into the black upturned earth in flowerbeds behind
the park bench where I am biding my time until Borders opens its doors to start
the business day. At 0900 I will cross
I
have some leisure time today. My train
leaves Union Station at about 1500 so the day stretches before me. My overnight bag slows me down, but I am
grateful I pack light and am not tied down by a rolling bag, etc.
I
enjoy watching
Eventually
a man begins to tell me his tale of woe.
This is a hazard to those of us who like to observe people. I appear accessible. I am almost a captive audience. I listen as he spills his tale. He seems to value having a listener. Other problems may seem large, but just
having a listener may help him make it through the challenges of the day ahead.
Soon
after 0900, I enter the bookstore. I
spent a couple hours engaged in reading bits and pieces of the tempting stack
of books. I flip through the pages of
colorful magazines. Eventually I make my
purchase – a Doris Lessing novel. Se is
a Nobel Prize winner. She influenced
people and is associated with the women’s liberation movement.
I
emerge into sunlight. I remove my jacket
and hoist my bags to begin the long walk to Union Station. The bags seem heavy. Sweat breaks on my brow. I decide to take a bus to the train station.
Customer Service –
Just
before I board the bus, I see a favorite store: Crate and Barrel. I enter and almost immediately realize that
my energy is too low. Wrangling my bags
seems too much work. I am suddenly tired after my busy weekend. Usually I would linger here, but I elect to
make a quick exit. But, before I leave,
I see a small item that I think my husband would enjoy. It is good to bring gifts to those we leave
behind. I pick the item up and head to
the cashier.
The
saleswoman is polite. I hear a familiar
rhythm in her voice. “What a pleasant
accent you have,” I say, with a smile.
“Where are you from?”
She
responds, “I am Russian.”
My
eyes meet hers. I smile. I say, “Dobre den! Kak dela!” and off I go,
spewing a string of Russian phrases together.
The
young woman pauses, listens, laughs.
“How
do you know my mother-tongue?” she asks, smiling at me.
The
interaction continued for a moment or two.
It pleased the young woman. It
pleased me.
I
ask her where I might find a bus to Union Station. She grabs my red bag and walks to the
door. She shows me the bus stop.
It
is a fine encounter. My energy
returns. We say our ‘dasvidanyas” and
smile at one another.
On the 151 Bus
The
people I meet are kind.
The
bus driver, my seatmate, an older couple…hey advise me on where to get off and
how to find the Amtrak station and where to buy snacks…do I look inept or
incapable of navigating the cityscape?
Or do I simply look approachable with my Russian induced smile still on
my lips?
At 1515, I board the
“Southwest Chief”… Heading Home
The
train is crowded and loud. I have a seat
mate. He is also headed to
We
converse happily. He has spent time in
Eventually
we say goodnight and try to sleep. It is
chilly. A light flashes in my eyes
whenever passengers open and lose the door to the observation car. It seems like a long night.
I
cannot get home to
·
Sunday, 20 April 2008
The Pace Continues!
No
sleeping in today! We were up by 7 and
after another wonderful omelet (D&D should open a B&B on Byron’s farm
in
Cousins
from
By
1:30 Byron and the
My
brother’s whirlwind trip to the
D
and I lingered with W for a while and laughed over old stories. I spoke to W’s mother on the phone - My
amazing Aunt M (103 years old and still living on her own and cooking and
baking too!).
D
and I drove to
Participants
make a square with their faces toward the center. A different individual leads each song. The leader stands in the center of the square
and enjoys the full force of the music…a veritable wall of sound and harmony
washing over them.
After
the delightful (and unexpected) songfest, we drove across town to dine with a
friend of D & Ds. Later more lire
music to sooth the savage beasts and finally bed! The alarm clock was set for 6AM…the weekend,
the visit was basically over.
·
Saturday, 19 April 2008
We were up at 7AM and after a delicious
breakfast made by our host, Byron and I were trundled off to our meeting
downtown. By 9AM we were seated in the
auditorium of the modern, beautiful Christian Science church in downtown
The
day’s events involved remarks by my brother’s CS teacher, interposed with
personal testimonies from students.
At
lunch we dined at a nearby café. We were
crowed together and listened as people shared their own stories and the details
of their lives over sandwiches and salad. Then back to the church for more
enlightening remarks.
Saturday Evening…
Over
stimulated and tired, we made our way back to my cousin’s flat. We soon found ourselves in D's car heading
for a Thai restaurant where we dined and talked. After the fine meal we decided to go to a
local bakery for coffee and cake.
Later
at their flat, we listened as D. played her lire - rather magical sounding
music, just right for pre-bedtime. We
played with the cats and listened. At
midnight we crawled into bed. I slept
like a rock.
·
Friday, 18 April 2008
Sleeping in a Chair
I
used my knitting bag (an Air Force helmet bag filled with 8 balls of lovely
soft yarn) as an auxiliary pillow last night.
I spread my red shawl over my shoulders and legs as a blanket.
It
was a little cold and a bit uncomfortable but I slept pretty well. I was grateful to have no seat-mate during
the night. I was able to curl up on both
seats.
Haunted by Alzheimer’s?
During
the night, voices wakened me. A
passenger from the sleeper car seemed to have become lost and disoriented. Or perhaps he was sleepwalking. Later, the conversation made me think of an
Alzheimer’s patient.
I
listened with my eyes closed. My
thoughts went back to occasions when my own father would be up and about in the
night. Night fears would drive him. He would walk about, confused. He rambled around the dark house with
intensity both unfocused and urgent.
There was something in the timbre of his voice that betrayed the
underlying fear - I knew that he knew that something was really amiss.
The
railroad employee was calm and kind. He
helped the gentleman find his way back t the sleeping car and listened
patiently to the rambling, disjointed tale, making now making no corrections
and responding in a warm, non-judgmental way.
(So often people try to correct confused individuals when the details of
the story are unbelievable and inconsistent.)
Flat,
black earth stretches for miles n either side of the train. The fields are boggy, wet. There are puddles everywhere.
At
10AM it is still gray outside. Someone
boards the train and I hear talk about a 6.5 earthquake in
I
see large stretches of purple in the fields now – lavender, sage, clover? What could it be?
The
grass here is vibrant green. In the
middle of one field are dozens of large white birds – a stark contrast to the
rich black earth. The many puddles
mirror the gray, gray, gray mid-morning sky.
,
I Take up my Knitting
I
begin to knit. The train car is filing
up now.
The
conductor arrives with a passenger. “Sit
with her,” she said, winking at me. “Se
has had an interesting life. You’ll like
her.”
I
moved over and set aside my knitting. A
young well-dressed many makes himself comfortable beside me.
The
conductor was correct. We hit is off
quite well. Our conversation took off at
a sprint and continued for several hours.
We continued to talk even as we emerged from Union Station Chicago and
only ceased when I hopped into a cab.
What
did we talk about? The conversation was
as intense as any graduate level class filled with opinionated students and
moved forward quickly. My seatmate had
just given a speech at a college concerning racism, sexism, and
relationships. We enthusiastically discussed
values, relationships and myriad other topics.
Eventually we spoke about Christian Science. The young man had studied
at a seminary and was intrigued by the ideas we shared.
It
was a lovely conversation.
Arrived in
Once
in
I
had not seen my brother in about 5 years.
He arrived in the
Once
the party concluded my brother and I took an express bus to our cousin’s
home. We were grateful to sit
quietly. We dined and talked until about
midnight and then found our way to comfortable, cozy beds and a good night’s
sleep.
·
Thursday, 17 April 2008
Unexpected Snow Flurries
Spring
mornings in
The
electronic weather station in our kitchen keeps me apprised of the daily
temperatures. This is good because a
flatlander like me would be fooled by the view outside my window. The outdoor word here is like a movie set –
perfectly staged each day. The visual
cues often make me think it is shirtsleeve weather and really it is quite
brisk.
The
bright morning dog walks this time of year start when the mercury reads about
35 degrees. Between about 7AM and 9AM,
the temperature rockets up almost 20 degrees.
By midday, another 20 degrees registers and the sweating begins.
So
on this fine morning the thermometer to oddly still stuck at a chilling 32
degrees and the time is 11AM!
I
turn from the thermometer to look out the windows. The usually blue expanse of sky above is a
pearly grey. White flakes flutter down,
as if a bag of Styrofoam pellets had burst open.
I
shiver. Then I head back into the
bedroom to pack my bags.
On My Way to
Now
at 4PM, I am seated by the window on an eastbound train, watching snow-covered
mountains and wondering what the weather will be like when I arrive at my
destination (
Just
as we roll into
We
are out of adobe country. I peer out at
the town square and see the charming old buildings there.
I
am drawn to the town – or perhaps the idea of the town. I imagine the pleasure of owning one of those
buildings. I would build a nest of an
apartment upstairs above a small shop.
Under the streetside windows would be a bench. The entrance to the shop would be flanked
with large pots of blooming plants.
Inside a pair of cats would patrol the premises or enjoy the afternoon
sun coming through the broad windows.
This
is an old fantasy of mine. I play it all
out in my head as the train moves me farther away from my
Passengers and Employees
When
I boarded the train in Lamy, an older man boarded at the same time. He was slow to wrangle is large pile of
matching luggage and while he worked, he peppered the conductor with questions
and demands. He had ideas and demands about
everything. He also was oblivious to the
fact he was slowing down the boarding and departure process.
I
watched the conductor trying to diplomatically move the passenger forward. The conductor was not amused by this
controlling man.
Now
was I when the conductor assumed we were a couple.
“Seats
41 and 42,” she barked and turned on her heel.
She was gone before I could make it clear that I did not want to be
associated with this man. The man was
not happy either. He began yelling about
other seat options.
I
quickly covered the distance between myself and the conductor and quietly
negotiated a seat far from Mr. Loud and Picky.
“I
thought you were together!” she laughed and laughed even harder when she heard
my emphatic NO!
For
the next 40 minutes, the pleasant conductor perched on the arm of my seat and
shared tales of her adventures with me. She
spoke of a chance meeting with then-President DW Eisenhower; she told a story
about an unexpected Christmas morning
gift of 50 tamales when the train pulled into a small town on the route; and
she talked to me about how crowded and smelly the train ride is in the summer
months when he Boy Scouts return home from camp. I listened.
I laughed.
Later
the kind conductor took me on a tour of the train.
At
the snack bar I chatted with a man who called himself a “Disneyland Dad” – he
worked as a chef at a Methodist camp in LA and as often as possible made trips
back to small-town
He
told me stories about the summer help (including Ukrainian girls; he spoke to
me about how he handled his stuttering problem; he showed me his I-phone. I listened and laughed.
Later
I sat with a young au pair from
From
my seat, I listen to countless conversations not always meant for my ears.
Outside
the window a vivid field of green spreads out along the river. Hundreds of geese
settle in there, huddling close, getting ready for the night perhaps.
There
are no trees now. The flat land spreads
to the horizon, occasionally dotted with black and brown cattle. The land is vast, deserted
A
hundred or so black cows, startled by the train, run across the field. As they sowed down, the younger ones gamboled
about like little lambs.
Now,
a few miles down the
No
trees here- birds make nests on the cross bars of obsolete wooden power line
poles.
We
go over the pass, the highest point o the
A
voice comes on the loudspeaker and tells us about how the railroad gained
access to this land. The original owners
of the Wooten Ranch used to charge pioneers and hunters a fee for crossing
their land. When the railroad decided to
build there, negotiations took some time.
Finally the Wooten’s were guaranteed their winter supplies and that each
of them would have a job with the railroad.
The
disembodied voice speaking into the microphone was excited when he saw the Elk
and encouraged us all to look outside and see the “moose”…a few moments later
we heard the microphone click and a soft voice uttered, “Elk, those are elk.”
The
train is clean and fairly comfortable. I
am in the “cheap seats”. I think about
my experience on Ukrainian trains. It
seems so long ago.
·
Wednesday 16 April
Tomorrow I am off to
Mark
unexpectedly swept me off to the store to buy me a camera tonight.
I
was swayed by the red cameras…of course one should consider other things
besides color, but a red one came home with me.
I
will read the manual on the 24 our train trip.
·
Thursday, 10 April 2008
I am off to Las Cruces
The
wind is raging…I cannot see the
The
New Mexico Library Association (NMLA) is hosting an annual conference. Our job is to man a recruiting table - the
mission: present the public with opportunities to wok at resolving the adult
literacy problems that are rife in
I
am so grateful for the twist of fate that has brought us to
·
Monday, 7 April 2008
A white dove joins me for
breakfast...
I
glanced up from my coffee, my attention captured by a bright flash of white
among the branches of the large conifer just outside the kitchen windows. My eyes lock on a white dove. Before I can react, I hear the bird cooing
and see its shy mate huddling on a nearby branch.
I
lose interest in my breakfast and become engrossed in watching this dove-couple
as they collaborate on where to build their cozy nest. I wonder how they decide. They resemble a human couple chatting about
the view and the special features and benefits of life in this particular
development, err, tree.
Do
they really negotiate and consider the pros and cons? Or is it the luck of the draw or just a gut
feeling?
It
pleases me to think of them building a nest, starting a family, so close I can
be an observer. I can live vicariously
through them.
Did
people live vicariously through my own nest-building, baby-raising years?
A
white dove is a symbol of promise and peace, a vote of confidence, a poem with
feathers… What a beautiful way to start the work week…a reminder of what life
is about and how it should be lived.
The
sun is setting now. I hear gentle cooing
outside as the doves wind down their day.
Can there be a more soothing sound?
A more hopeful sound?
As
darkness takes over, I remember another April night, three years ago in
I
hope the doves stay and raise their young.
·
Thursday, 3 April 2008
Here I am, signing
in…yes, I am still alive. My daily
journaling regime has died away. For
many years, I managed to sit down and clear my head each AM with a daily stream
of consciousness spew of whatever was on my mind. These days, I just cannot seem to make it
happen.
I miss the calm
that comes with that daily discipline.
How do I start my
days lately? I crawl from under the cozy
covers and pull on my old Levis and a flannel shirt. I turn on NPR, wash my face and slather on
some Nivea.
I wander into the
kitchen and take a seat by the fireplace.
The morning air is around 32 degrees most mornings lately. I pull on a pair of Mark’s white socks and
tug my dusty Air Force combat boots over my toes and lace them up.
By now, Miss Zia
is nosing around, using her snooot to get my attention. She makes a guttural sound as if trying to
speak. When I do not respond, she
assumes an attentive position by the back door.
She points her nose at the door knob and seems to be a soldier in position
of attention. If I look hard, I see her
thighs shiver in anticipation of the morning walk.
Finally I grab the
“noose” and hook it to Zia’s harness. She
waits for her invitation to go through the door. I set my pedometer and off we go. Most days the sun is not quite yet over the
mountain ridge just east of our humble home.
Though the sun is not up, the local birds are. They chatter in the trees. Soon they will congregate by the koi pond on
the other side of the house for a morning bath.
The trees will be black with wet birds preening in the early
sunlight.
Zia and I head
down the road. Se is in the lead. No nosing about, she is a dog with a mission. She and I set a brisk pace and make our way
up the dirt road to the empty desert adjacent to the few houses near our place.
We both relax
here. The sun hits my back. I unzip my field jacket, remove my gloves and
breathe in the clear, crisp air. Some
days there are rabbits or coyotes darting through the area. But usually we have this place to
ourselves.
We log about a
mile and a half each day. We come home
eager for breakfast, refreshed by the 30 minutes of walking. It is a time for meditating. It is a quiet beginning, with no demands except
to stay in the here and now.
The remainder of
the day evolves around the laptop…research, developing strategies and
checklists, lesson plans and PR materials,
responding to questions, advising people, sharing information, loading
data bases, completing reports, reading and responding to e-mail.
From 9-5 my
fingers fly across the keyboard. I come
home and in the evening my outside commitments and sometimes my job commitments
fill some of my evening house and many of my weekend hours too.
Then comes the
need to touch bases with friends and family.
I love to hear from them and I love to share with them. Often I am disappointed to find infrequent
responses.
I ponder how it is
that in this day and age when we live and breath around our digital devises, we
are less often in touch than we were before there was a cell phone in every
pocket and a keyboard on every desk.
As I take a
vacation (my hot, leisurely shower is a vacation!) I consider simply closing up
my laptop.
I could just shut
ff the power and not ever turn it back on.
I could choose to drop out of this digital lifestyle. At least after hours.
I could resume the
lovely habit of writing letters.
Stop the e-mail,
the Skype, the Facebook…the listserves (I belong to sooooo many of them). I already screen my calls…
I could write
again. Look at all the hours I spend
engaged with other people…
I could read
novels and get more sleep. I could take
an evening walk. I could pick up a pen and
write a real letter.
Would anyone
notice? Who cares? Most everyone seems so busy, they would not
miss me if I just stopped.
And perhaps I would
have time to journal a bit.
So, I could do as
I do each morning – just walk away and breathe.
If anybody needs
me, they know where to find me. Living
my life.
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